I am definitely someone who wanted to figure it all out. So many times I thought I had it figured out. When I was 17 years old I remember saying to myself, "I know how the whole world works. I have it all figured out." I really did say this, and really believed this. Then with in about 6 months my whole life changed. Life as I knew it took a 180 degree turn. I was in a foreign land with no clue how to survive or where I was heading. I remember as a child watching a true story about a girl, I think she was German, and she was only a teenager when the plane she was in with her mother crashed. She was the sole survivor and landed in a jungle, where she had no clue how to survive and live. It was a mysterious and dangerous world. Survive she did, but it was harrowing to watch, and I'm sure even more harrowing to live through. But she figured it out over time and was eventually rescued.
Well I can relate to this. That was me at 18. Everything I had believed in and thought was true was turned upside down. That is when I began my long journey of personal growth. Now days I do it because I love it! Sometimes I do it because I hit upon important things I need to understand, transform or heal. But back then I "had" to do it because everything had come apart and I had to start over and figure out how to put the world and myself back together. Of course it wasn't really back together as it was, it was starting a whole new life.
Now many times I have come to places on my journey where I thought I had all the answers and had it figured out. But that usually only lasts for a time, then I wake up a bit more to the Truth and realize there is so much I don't know. I have come to a place where I realize the universe truly is so much bigger than we can ever know. Its an infinite reality that goes way beyond our finite minds. Even just looking at the planets in the sky I am memorized by the brilliance of the universe and reminded that it is so much bigger and grander than I can ever imagine.
So now I am allowing myself to enjoy being here. I am opening up to more and more truth, and at the same time understanding that I do not need to put God, Truth or the universe in a box. Its all way bigger than me, and that is fine. In fact it is this mystery and vastness what makes it all so exciting. I get to expand each time I open up and come to know a bit more about the universe. That is so much better than trying to put it all into a little package.
The universe is vast, life is vast, and we are vast, let's just marvel at this, and leave it at that! We don't need to squish it down to fit in our hands so that we can make sense of it. We could just enjoy the ride and get to know the universe, truth, ourselves etc. See what is there, explore and let it reveal and unfold its self to us. Rather than us trying to force it to be certain ways. I say enjoy, explore, awaken!!
