Being Clean Inside

I have noticed since I now have the Holy Spirit, I am given very strong messages when I need to clean things up in life, or relationships.  I recently went through an upset with someone.  For a couple of days, I noticed the Holy Spirit pressing on me inside about one part of the upset where there had been a misunderstanding, really letting me know I needed to apologize and clear this part up.  I did want to apologize but I was afraid of being yelled at, treated harshly or abusively.  

At first I ignored the prompting, out of fear.  But the Holy Spirit wouldn't let me go.  I could feel that I wasn't going to ever feel really clear, clean and peaceful if I didn't clean this up.  I wrote an apology letter and cleared up the misunderstanding, and they ended up writing me and apologizing too.  I wrote the letter, no matter how they were going to respond, because I cared about their feelings, I just knew it was important for my integrity, my spiritual peace to write it.  

I still really expected abusive words back, or at the very best indifference.  So often in relationships and conflicts, keeping our power and pride in tact, or being concerned with how they will respond takes precedence over being humble and loving.  But I realized through this, that I have to live with my soul, and it needs to be pure and clean or I am not spiritually happy.   

The other person has to live with themselves, so what they do or don't do is really their concern.  What is most important is that I am following what I know is right, being Christ like in all situations, and being willing to pour love upon a conflict as much as I can, even if it means simply praying for the person. 

 I have learned I can't always be close to people, there are people who are too hurtful, or unhealthy to be close to, but I can always pray, always bless, forgive, make amends if needed.  Being a force of love and goodness really does bring us happiness and peace. 

I now am a force for good, always.  I look for ways to pour Christlike love into all situations in my life, especially ones where there has been conflict or a riff between myself and another.  No matter what they do, I do what is right, what is kind, what is good.